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Currently playing in iTunes: All Of Me (Feat. Emanny) by Joe Budden

More or less I find myself back with the same feeling. Something is missing out of my center. Things around me are changing but not most of the people. Moving forward due to ambition but those are left behind do to their own beliefs. I work hard, excel, yet feel drifted. Nobody understands me and I am different. Each year that comes I find myself in a different zone. I am pushed by fear and failing. The doubt some throw on my name…it all adds up. Walking away from those two made it worth it…but success isn’t granted without damages.

Where will I be at the age of 30? Somewhere defeated living on my aunt’s couch…or Application Support at my current job still going so far? Anything is possible or so we like to believe. Who will be the lady…the love of my life? Will you stay and get better along the way…or will you give up along the road? Nobody can blame you. I never get the girls I truly want. Something changes shape or form about their ways…then I’m stuck confused. This must be the suffering that certain success brings. Sad thing is I can’t stop for anyone…including you.

I stare in the eyes of granted chances. I guess I will never know where the mother of my child will get me.…beyond court. The preservation of money is no longer associated with my cause. At the end of the day I don’t believe guys like me get the happy ending.